Life is wonderful!!! :)
Sean Visintainer, I am so freaking happy I broke up with you. Words cannot explain how amazing I feel without you in my life. I was walking up my apartment stairs from work tonight with the biggest smile on my face, realizing the whole time how miserable I was when I was with you, compared to how happy I am now. Everything truly does happen for a reason.. And I feel sorry for you and ur beliefs on life. But I am utterly happy about mine.
I love my apartment! It’s so cute and cozy! Sometimes I wish I could just hang out here all day and not leave! Itsthebest!! :)
Newest obsession.. Chobani Greek yogurt. It has 14g of protean packed into a little 6oz container…I’ll take it! Oh another new fav I have is Allure Aloe water, if you haven’t tried it yet-you should! It’s healthy and delicious! happy Tuesday :)
When you play with fire you get burned.. and right now I am a big ball of fire. Sean, I loathe ur existence. I’m sure in a few days I will realize you aren’t even worth hating and being angry about.. But until then I am going to enjoy every second of spiteful feelings and thoughts I have for you.. but don’t worry I won’t be like this for long. You are absolutely, positively not worth any ounce of energy I am giving you right now- and I know it. It just feels so good to finally hate you! I hope you are a lonely miserable old man, which I already know will be the case (thats comforting) no one who really gets to know you is EVER going to put up with ur selfish ways. You have a lot to learn and really need to grow up.
-never yours truly joria
ps: fuck urself.
I’m going to be just fine.
I would rather be alone then in a relationship where I feel lonely.. While you hang out with other girls and not invite me….ur girlfriend.. Or should I say ex girlfriend. I hope you have learned from OUR relationship what is and is not acceptable in a real ADULT relationship, where not just one.. but both parties are committed to each other. I sure hope she knows what she’s in for if this is or becomes a “serious” relationship..no children, no commitment-aka marriage. Just some fella who buys you nice things and tells you that he loves you and how much he cares about you. To me, commitment is what shows me someone truly cares about me.. Not materialistic items. I would rather have nothing but love, rather then everything and just meaningless words.
In a lighter note…. I became a new talent stylist today and I couldn’t be more ecstatic!
Today.. I am laying on my couch for a change of scenery :)
Desperately trying to wrap my mind around everything I heard tonight.. I will explain later what it’s all about…..maybe. The human mind is a very powerful thing. Its crazy the kinds of things it can do.
SPINNING!
so yesterday was lind’s private spin party, it was my first time spinning and i must say it was quite a workout! i dont think i have ever sweat so much in my life! besides my boney butt being extremely sore today i really enjoyed it! i wish there was a studio like FLY FITNESS somewhere in spokane..if anyone is ever in the kirkland wa area i would totally check them out! in the mean time i do believe i will be getting into spinning!..if the workout isnt enough motivation perhaps the fact that we are getting a lululemon in spokane soon will be!! :)
Even tho I think the universe is repeatedly trying to give me the middle finger today, I’m choosing to ignore it.
Today was an awesome day at work! I was busy with clients from the second I walked in until a half hour after we closed. I did 3 haircuts and 2 color applications, and I wasn’t even dead tired when I got off! I actually went and got dinner and a drink with a girlfriend :) anyway back to my point, I love my job and everyone I work with! Making people look and feel beautiful is so rewarding. I knew I wanted to do hair for a reason. La la la laaaa time for sleep!! Good night!
Another thought of justification, I asked you to go somewhere with me, take a trip or something, to spend time together..and you invite me to go with you on a business trip to watch ur presentation “and we can stay in pre paid hotel” ASKING to spend time together was apparently too much to ask.
“may today there be peace within. may you trust that you are exactly where you are meant to be. may you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born within yourself and others. may you use the gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you. may you be content with yourself just the way you are. let this knowledge settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance and love. it is there for each and every one of us.”
last night i had a very nice chat with a friend of mine from san diego. for some reason i was not tired at all so around 3am i was doing my normal fbook creeping of my friends back “home” and i get a txt from my friend dave who i havent talked to in awhile.. turns out neither of us could sleep, so he asked if he could call me. it was really nice catching up with him and listening to his perspective on life. it was a very random phone call but i enjoyed every second of it. it was nice to have a mature adult conversation with someone i dont talk to on a regular basis. he really opened my eyes to something my best friend who is so close to me, has been telling me for YEARS. in certain situations i always seem to blame myself for things that dont work out, or things that dont go the way i had hoped. he stopped me dead in my sentence and said ” i have heard you blame yourself numerous times for things since we have been on the phone, things out of your control that im sure were not your fault at all” my best friend has told me this time and time again. it was kind of a slap in the face to hear from someone who is a distant friend. i took a step back today and really thought about all the very nice things dave said to me last night, and all of the things other people have told me in the recent months. its not that i dont believe what these people are telling me, i think i just brush it off and carry on about my day. but today during my product knowledge class at work my mind wondered and i started thinking about how awesome i really am. haha (not to toot my own horn) but i truly am a caring, witty, fun, loving, beautiful person “inside and out” i just need to remember it more often. i am SO thankful for absolutely everything that has happened to me since the beginning of this fine year of 2012. i have done SO much growing and changing already in just 2 and a half short months. i know what i want, i know how im going to get there and i am POSITIVE that it is going to happen. i am scared to death about all of it but more excited then ever! my confidence with my work and myself is building as each day passes. i have been channeling all of my focus and energy into work and it is so wonderful. each client i have i learn something new from, its so cool! my mind is no longer clouded with questions and wonder of my importance to someone else. all i have is me now, and i am important to myself.
